Take your carriage clock and shove it.

I don't think i've ever posted a picture of  the house Taff and I bought (well, with a mortgage) back in March. Here's where we live:


Ignore the 'meadow garden'! :D

I haven't updated in nearly a month! I don't think i've gone this long without writing in the whole 4 or whatever years i've had this!

Things haven't been too good in the last few weeks.

Friday October 16th was my mum's 47th birthday. On that day she found out she has breast cancer. It's pretty aggressive and the doctors just wanted her to have a masectomy but mum didn't want that and I wish she would but i'll stand by her whatever.
She's going to have chemotherapy and hopefully it'll shrink enough so she can just have a lumpectomy and then she'll have radiotherapy. I didn't think they did radiotherapy anymore but apparently it's some kind of last resort. Chemo starts later this week I think. I'm really scared and I feel really useless as I live 100 miles away so I can't be there for her. I don't know how bad she's going to get and what she'll be able to do for herself and i'm scared that if she does need help to make meals/get shopping etc that she won't help. I also feel like a horrible person because... i'm scared of seeing her after she's started chemo. I mean, she's going to lose her hair and I don't want to stare/say something inappropriate. I'm not a strong person and me crying is the last thing she's going to need.

At first she said she wasn't going to have anything done but they said that would be a very slow, painful death.
I cried at work the Tuesday after I found out and had to go home. I felt like such a twat. I'd been composed all week but as soon as I told the manager I might have to have some time off I completely broke down.

Sorry for my rambles, but, I don't know what to do. I'm 19, I don't want to lose my mum.
:(

Thought I'd share here as well...


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Any more redheaded Halloween costumes?